01/22/26
Happy New Year!
12/29/25
Howdy yall!
December really flew by. I want to say this year more than before. But like that's so not true. It's always so fleeting, and stressful. It was so snowy and beautiful earlier in the month. It's snowing again; now that Christmas is over lol. Maybe it didn't deserve it this year lol. Christmas that is. Idk. I have so many reservations about this time of year. I love getting to watch the seasons change. I love getting to overcome the elements; and then being able to come back in and get all super cozy snuggly. I love the idea of doing Christmas actives but I guess i don't have a lot of practice in actually DOING them so I tend to get overwhelmed and sad. It's a constant struggle to keep myself from drowning this time of year. I try to take it slow, but the world asks so much of us all the time. I'm a sun powered machine. When the sun is gone I have an extremely hard time working up the energy to do basic things...
I should be resting
but how can i rest when the bills are piling up, and everything is getting more and more expensive by the day.
It feels selfish sometimes to be putting so much energy into doing this. But I have put so much of my life's energy into other activities and tasks that have ment nothing to me. I'm tired of throwing myself at the wall, waiting for, hoping desperately for something to stick. What they don't tell you is that the noodle will always fall the the floor eventually. Even if it sticks for a while. Noodles are meant for eating. Not for decorating walls...
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12/03/25this will be where I will post updates about my work and studio process!
I am moving away from "Social Media"; but I still need a place where I can express myself on the internet so I want to get into casual blogging on a regular old website. The internet used to be a place where you could actually go and hang out for hours on end. As a lonely kid growning up in the 90s the internet was my home. I spent hours on end playing internet games, and copy and pasting images into MSPaint to create elaborate colaged worlds. This was one of the first real ways I was able to create art for me and me alone in a place where no one would see... it was special ... now years and years later I deeply crave a digital space I can bend to my will; a world of my own... a wonderland to call home.
Who doesn't love shouting into the void?